There are women who follow religiously and there are women who religiously have something negative to say. I admit I've had thoughts about both. My heart breaks for this baby. I can't help but constantly think about what an aweful feeling to know the possibility is there that someday Jennifer will have to be overwhelmed with the thought of her baby not being in her arms anymore. To play over and over in her mind, the memories of his little heart beating so incredibly fast, it caused to stop beating at all.
On the other hand, I'm plagued with thoughts of "what would I do?" I would want so bad to be able to save the memories of these moments in my mind and in print, but there's a huge part of me that doesn't know if I would be able to stay in the moment where they are working feverishly on my baby, but take time out to text. It seems odd to me. I am fully aware people are praying and want updates. I am also fully aware that sometimes in those moments, you have to step aside and let others do their job while you watch by the wayside without the same knowledge in the medical field as those trying to save your precious little one. So who knows, maybe pulling my phone and putting my scattered thoughts into actual words, might help me get through the moment. But I would hate to know being so busy preoccupied with my phone or computer, it led me to miss something. I wish she had someone to document for her so she didn't have to worry about that right now.
On to the next elephant in the room....I truly believe so many bloggers who write negativity about her choice of food, her amount of computer time and the amount of time spent by other bloggers following her, stems from a point of jealousy. There have been times that I, myself, have been peeved at the amount of publicity she receives because she has a sick child.
I don't have as many followers because I am newer in the blogging world and my children are (THANK GOD) very healthy. I am not one to constanty hit the refresh button and forget to feed my kids because I'm so enthralled by what is going on in someone else's life. I am way to busy to preoccupy myself with instant updates.
But saying that, I am aware there are thousands more children that, at this very second, are losing their battle with whatever disease they are fighting. There are a thousand more that just now died in some sort of motor vehicle accident. And still there are a thousand more being physically or sexually abused at this very second. The difference is that I don't know about those right now. Because I've enthralled myself into the blogging world, I have been made aware of this situation. Stellan. So as I pray for the millions of other children battling against the evils in this world, I also pray for this precious baby that just happens to be almost the same age as my littlest one, who both have names I know.